Pretty Worn Out

Pretty worn out this week- lots on my mind
friends, family- every aspect of my life has something happening

school implications, relationships, friendships, aquaintances, work etc...

spiritually, i'm beginning to take things more serious than before- wanting to know more of God- not doing stuff on my own, but still trying to anyways just to get desired results. I'm probably going to have to work my butt off just to get whatever belongs/destined to be mine. God prob has it up to here with me :P but His love is never changing for moi :) He will never give me anything that i cannot handle.

school-wise- still trying to get that perfect supplementary application letter in the works. getting there- very slowly.

friendship- this coming from a fortune cookie - 'good time to make new friends' - i've met Khoa, and some other people from TCAC that i got to know better :) also getting to know Joyce a little bit better now. She's the vice-chair- so i guess getting to know someone that leads yur fellowship is good! good time of fellowship with her now that we just don't talk about shopping and stores and stuff. haha. Getting to know more of everyone in general now, which is pretty good considering that i don't even go to my church's fellowship anymore. i don't know if i should start going but maybe showing up for Sunday service on a regular basis once again would be a great start. Can't wait when CC happens (it'll be my first of many [hopefully just 4 '-_- ] to come!) and when the CCF -interuniversity basketball tournament gets under way in May.

work: the boss is gone but i've done more work than before. so this week has been a long week in terms of work but getting to know more of my bosses a lot more now. Basketball and poker tournament coming up in May. build that team no-frills spirit up XP.

relationship wise- i wish i could do more- she's always so busy with school and i don't want to be a distraction for her- but i also know if i don't do anything- nothing will happen, not even a chance will be given unto me. I want to be more for her; more than a friend and more of a brother in Christ; but am i being too selfish there? the truth: i wish we could have had met in different circumstances, where we would have been more closer (distance wise, academic-level wise). i want to know more of her b/c my mind tells me to and my heart compells me to do so. Actions speak louder than words, but its also words that give a mental picture of how much i care for her: I love her without a doubt.


I pray for a fruitful relationship for both of us- of whatever becomes of us. Everything works out in the end :) I pray that we can be true to each other and i pray for her academics Lord. If anything, even if the school of her choice is not in Your will Lord, at least let her step out of her comfort zone and give her strength to continue the journey with You. Let her find You in the hardest/ bliquest of times and that she will use the experience of her walk to Glorify Your Great Name!




~ i kinda do get the point, but i refuse to believe that i can't do anything about it. ~