back all the way in August

i remember the "conflict" that occurred b/w my significant other. it was talk, give and take effect, cons and pros, argument and persuasion, conversation etc etc.

well, i wore a jacket that i haven't worn since August a few days ago and i found this. I had it cut out from somewhere, really don't know where but here it is:

"Everything hangs on the outcome of a process of negotiation, which has you feeling like a puppet on a string. However, the more you see yourself as a victim of circumstance, the more you will become one. You are far stronger than you know."

and that was how i felt back in late July, early August. felt hung out b/c i was like a puppet being played with. Though i know that she wasn't doing so... and b/c of her own issues with relationships...it was indeed a tug of war occuring. Trying to persuade and make her trust me... haha...probably the hardest and most wonderful time in pursuing her...i kinda felt pulled. but as you can see, i pulled through and as i gather myself for a serious relationship, somewhere i've never been before and yet want to achieve.... it'll be such a feat and accomplishment and i want to make some things clear...

I'm kinda scared of being hurt and don't want to ever experience that kind of pain like in the past. I feel that the girl i am with will not disapoint and i have my whole faith in her to be true to me and I to her. I want her to be my foundation on this Earth help me with my faith in God. She is a godly woman, and i take pride in that, and i want to tell the WHOLE world about how amazing she is.

Even though we have different schedules and everything, you know i can be there to share your moments of troubles and moments of happiness. to see you smile and be a your crying shoulder.

i have had a couple bumps in the road and i'm falling apart, if you're the one for me, please make me whole again.






How should i reflect on everything in my life this whole year....?

Do not be anxious about anything (Philippians 4:6)

Anxiety should never be found in a believer. In spite of the magnitude, quantity, and diversity of out trials, afflictions, and difficulties, anxiety should never exist under any circumstances. This is becuase we have a Father in heaven who is almighty, who loves His children as He loves His "one and only" (John 3:16), and whose complete joy and delight it is to continually assist them under all circumstances. We should heed His Word, which says, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."

reflect on these words:
"In Everything"
"By prayer and petition"
"With thanksgiving"

May we take these truths to heart, instinctively walking in them, so the result will be lives that glorify God more abundantly than ever before. George Mueller





Search your heart several times a day, and if you find something that is disturbing your peace, remember to take the proper steps to restore calm. Fancis de Sales