Lately...

I've been trying to handle my financial situation with the game of Poker- seems i'm pretty decent in it

went to Rama a couple times in the last few weeks. been avg around like $200 win total at the poker tables. So it seems pretty promising to go into this profession as a professional poker player LOL.

not that i'm addicted to gambling- but if i'm that dang good at it and i swipe up $200 in a day (i mean a few hours) everytime i go - dang why shouldn't i?

its easy money and its something i enjoy doing. but of course this is a just phase in my life. people are (or i can already imagine the backlash of my actions) going to complain and tell me stop. eh i never lost once (well except my first time with James - GRRRR lol) at Niagara.

So i kinda hit a big pot this past friday- won $600!!! *woot woot*
more days like this and i can see my tuition fees paid for and Urbana2006 a possible reality.

I don't know, i kinda have this thing against my own actions. my own guilty conscience. knowing God is looking out for me and Him watching my every action. I don't want to glorify His name by doing this, but then again i'm a borderline Christian. I have my good and bad days and i really want to go on a missions trip next summer b/c of Urbana2006. Then if i get enough money i don't want to worry about my finance next year when i can fix it this year. *sigh* oh the controversy!!!!

When this phase of my life is over, which i can't wait for it to end!, i have a lot of work to do in God's name. i'm gonna try to reduce these actions of "gambling" over the next few months and see where i can go from there.

boohoo